Depression, redux

It occurred to me not too long ago that the rea­son I was on the freaky no wheat or corn or toma­to diet was that I felt a lot bet­ter after I tried it. Among the ben­e­fits for me were decreased men­tal fog, greater ener­gy, and ele­vat­ed mood.

I noticed that if I, for exam­ple, had a piz­za, the next day I’d have low men­tal clar­i­ty, depressed mood, no moti­va­tion, and zero energy.

I’ve been “cheat­ing” on it for a while now. It start­ed when I noticed that I was more sen­si­tive to some foods than oth­ers, so I just did­n’t care if I had some corn, but I would actu­al­ly stay away from the flour prod­ucts. But even­tu­al­ly it got to where the only thing I was­n’t eat­ing was wheat. And so now I’m depressed a lot, and eat­ing wheat does­n’t seem to affect it. That could eas­i­ly mean that I’m so far off the reg­i­men than the last straw, wheat, does­n’t make much difference.

I guess if tak­ing care of one’s self was easy, every­one would be doing it. sigh