Have I Told You Lately That I Love My Job?
I did mention several weeks ago that Armenian Remembrance Day had arrived. I’ve been meaning to write about that day for some time now. Armenian Remembrance Day, April 24th, is one of the two days out of the year in which the Mount Davidson Cross is illuminated so as to be visible for miles. The idea to go shoot some photos up there had been percolating in my consciousness for some time, and as I gathered my things at the studio after dance lessons that Tuesday night I thought that I really should go. I was tired, it was late, and I was supposed to be on-site with a client the next morning. I had every excuse running through my head when I went to the window of the studio and looked West-Southwest. Only the very top was visible, but the cross was there on top of Mount Davidson, shining in the night. All my excuses evaporated in that moment and were replaced by a single thought: game on.
I had to ride home to get my camera, and spent a little time packing up my kit. I forgot to remove the polarizing filter from my 28 – 80mm zoom, and in retrospect considering the conditions I probably should have taken it off. The fog was rolling in, and I ended up with some very nice effects from the light and fog that probably would have been somewhat more pronounced without the polarizing filter. Plus it darkens my shots by a half-stop. At night taking long exposures, every bit counts.
I knew where the cross was, but had forgotten entirely how to find the path to get to the top. I rode around the Miraloma Park, taking every chance to make an uphill turn no matter which direction I was facing. Eventually I found the bus stop near where I’d come out of the woods on my last visit, parked my bike and hiked up into the woods.
There was a first-quarter moon in the sky but the tree canopy kept it pretty dark in the park surrounding the summit of Mount Davidson. Clearly I’ve been in the City too long, as I didn’t bring a flashlight into the woods. My instinct when going into a closed park at night is not to attract attention to myself; seeing where I’m going comes in a distant second. My eyes are pretty good in the dark. I count among my blessings that I am the son of an astronomer. Or maybe it’s my love for carrot juice that does it, I’ll never know.
Miraloma Park is a pretty quiet neighborhood, and I didn’t have to go very far into the park before I really seemed to be in the woods. Looking back there were some lights visible through the trees, but nothing to provide me illumination save for the indirect light of the moon. Yet there wasn’t really any question of being lost. No matter whether I were East or West of the cross, my objective could only be in one direction: uphill. About a halfway up (though I didn’t know how much further it would be when I was on my way up) I began to see light up ahead. At first just a glow, then as I got closer it started to appear as an otherworldly radiance. As I got closer my heart started pounding. The light was flooding the air around me.
I got close to the top and the cross itself began to become visible. Let me tell you: that thing is huge. Stepping up to see a 103-foot tall cross flooded with light is an amazing experience. Add on to that all the clichés you’ve ever heard: coming from the darkness into the light, climbing to the top, and so on. It would be a moving experience even if it weren’t a religious icon.
Once upon a time the fact that it is would have bothered me. Today I try to take my spiritual cues in whatever form they take. I try not to be prejudiced by symbols but instead try to find meaning in them. I’ve heard the rector of an Episcopal parish talk about seeking Jesus in other people, and a priest from the Zen Center giving instructions to find the Buddha, the enlightened being in all people, whether or not we like or agree with them. Why not then look for the light within a religious symbol? Why not ponder its meaning? One does not have to believe in the literal truth of a story in order to be moved by it. Believe me: I am not trying to evangelize when I say that being in the presence of that cross was powerful.
I shot over a hundred and twenty photos that evening. I stopped three times to meditate, pray, contemplate, whatever you want to call it. I had quiet time. The last time I stood and placed my hand on the base of the cross. Adding on to the experience were the flowers left on the plaque commemorating the Armenian genocide. That Remembrance Day was the reason I was able to be in the presence of the cross that night. I’ve been a lot of places significant for their consecration to the spirit, but that night was the first time I truly felt I stood on hallowed ground.
I went to Twin Peaks to see if I could get some shots of the cross from a similar elevation and some distance. By this time the fog was rolling in thick. I parked at the parking lot overlooking the City and went to the nearest of the peaks. After a few steps up the hill it occurred to me that climbing a hill in strong wind and fog at night with unsure footing might not have been my wisest choice. I looked at the rolls of fog flying past me, and down the mountain, and pressed on upward, being perhaps a little more careful of my footing, moving slowly and carefully in the dark.
At the top of the Northern Peak I couldn’t see a thing from Mount Davidson. I have trouble believing that the fog was so thick that I couldn’t see through to light that bright, but I stood there on the top of the Northern Peak waiting in case I might catch a glimpse. I told myself that if I could see even a little I’d come back down and climb up the Southern Peak, farther from where I parked but closer to Mount Davidson. The fog rolled over me, pushing me steadily from the West, but I never saw the light of the Mount Davidson Cross.
What I did see were stars. The fog was all around me, but not above me. Below me was the hazy light of the City, but above me was more or less clear depending on how thick the fog rolling past was. I spent about twenty minutes watching in the dark, up above the hustle and noise, as the wind and fog swept past.
As I prepared to make my way back down the rocky path, I smiled to myself thinking that most folks have more sense than to climb a mountain, albeit a tiny one, in the middle of the night during brisk winds. And having more sense than that, most people never get the opportunity to feel the fog on their face as they watch the stars appear and hide, with no one else around and no sound but the wind over the rocks. And then the thought came that capped the whole night off:
Not bad for a day in the office.
Steve,
Come on back home. We
Steve,
Come on back home. We have lots of hills, a ton of stars, plenty of wind, and it gets pretty quiet, especially late at night. We occasionally get fog, too. We don’t have any gigantic crosses, but we have lots of white steepled churches and the Joseph Smith monument. You’d be in hog-heaven here. (Earning a living is a separate issue.)
Dad