Monochromatic Outlook

Both par­ties to this con­tract, by enter­ing into it, are giv­ing up their con­sti­tu­tion­al right to have any such dis­pute decid­ed in a court of law before a jury, and instead are accept­ing the use of arbi­tra­tion. Both par­ties also agree to give up any right to pur­sue on a class basis any claim or con­tro­ver­sy against the oth­er. —€”from Blue Cross HMO Exclu­sions and Limitations

OK, I can appre­ci­ate that they are attempt­ing to pro­tect them­selves from the «ever … Read the rest

ham­mer­head and I are here at the HP Pavil­ion watch­ing the Sharks play Col­orado. My first hock­ey game! Damp­house scored with 9 sec­onds left in the first peri­od and the Sharks lead 1 – 0.

Yo, flux­ions, Matt says hi.… Read the rest

My busi­ness cards arrived today, so I now have a job title.

“Project Man­ag­er.”

God, how embar­rass­ing. I’m MANAGEMENT now. Except I don’t even have any­thing to man­age. Yeah, the PROJECT, but, um.… I DO the project. And most of the time it seems unman­age­able. Ah well. I guess noth­ing real­ly changes with the arrival of print­ed busi­ness cards.… Read the rest

Yes­ter­day morn­ing: 186 pounds

This morn­ing: 190 pounds

Heh heh heh… ugh.

My Idea—Voice Farm… Read the rest

Five miles today. I tar­get­ed a heart rate of 150, was clos­er to 155 through most of the run. I fin­ished in 59:49, just bare­ly faster than 12 min­utes to the mile.

I can’t say I like going that slow­ly. It feels just as dif­fi­cult as 9 minute miles but with­out the extra fun. I guess the point of this is that even­tu­al­ly I should be able to do 9 minute miles at 150 bpm and then … Read the rest

I won’t say I actu­al­ly swam in the Bay; I spent 15 min­utes stand­ing in the Bay up to my waist before I plunged the rest of myself in. Then I spent about five min­utes splash­ing around a lit­tle. I did­n’t make it out to the buoy that marks the begin­ning of the swim.

I did notice that my upper body was more affect­ed by the cold than my low­er body. If I could have gone in with an upper-body wet­suit, … Read the rest

xris3’s exper­i­men­tal film The Con­sumer’s War is being screened as part of the Brook­lyn Arts Coun­cil’s 38^th Inter­na­tion­al Film and Video Festival.

http://www.brooklynartscouncil.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=b4_schedule&ts=04222004121544#spikelee

Rock on, xris3! Every­one in the NYC area go check it out tonight.… Read the rest

8 miles, 1:22:58 on Urbano Dri­ve. I kin­da want­ed to go the 9^th mile, but I was pret­ty crispy by then, so I’m glad I didn’t.

Fol­lowed that up with anoth­er per­son­al best by swim­ming a kilo­me­ter in the pool. 45 laps is 1012.5 meters and I did that in 38:13. Of course swim­ming in a pool is rel­a­tive­ly easy; you can touch bot­tom to rest, kick off against the … Read the rest

Oh!
Sea of hurt I feel the waves of pain
And now the tide’s come in again
Caught in vicious cycle of despair
Give me the courage to face anoth­er day—Oh!

Oh sing a song of joy
Sweet child­hood nev­er desert me
Time for celebration—Oh!
over­come with a sense of elation
I’ll nev­er let you get to me
Sur­vival is my victory
Time for celebration—Oh!
over­come with a sense of elation

I sat in silence I was mourning
I said sor­ry a thou­sand times
I