I sold my guitar yesterday

My bounced-pay­check woes still have yet to be resolved, So I sold my gui­tar so that I could get food and even more impor­tant­ly kit­ty lit­ter. Pawn­shop gave me $50 for it (as a sale—it would have been $40 as a loan), which is not too bad. I bought it for $100 in 1990.

Basi­cal­ly I refuse to take on any new unse­cured debt. You can’t get out of debt by bor­row­ing mon­ey. Also, lets face … Read the rest

Hooray for the postal services

Last night Y. report­ed that she received the care pack­age I sent her. Pret­ty good, actu­al­ly: San Fran­cis­co to Tehran in 7 days. So now I’m a con­spir­a­tor in trans­port­ing restrict­ed goods into anoth­er coun­try. The copies of Cool Beans include mate­r­i­al the Iran­ian gov­ern­ment would def­i­nite­ly not approve of – I’m think­ing about the the pho­to in the Lon­ers With Bon­ers inter­view, but I’m sure there are zil­lions more instances. I also sent her Read­ing Loli­ta in Tehran, … Read the rest

I don’t get it

All the time I see guys in my neigh­bor­hood walk­ing with their girl­friends and instead of hold­ing hands or hav­ing their arm around the girls waist or shoul­ders, they’re drag­ging this poor girl around by a ham­mer­lock, their arms around the girl’s neck.

WTF? Do some girls think that’s cool? If I were a girl and some guy did that to me, he’d get one warn­ing before I put him in the hospital.

Yuck.… Read the rest

Goals, again

Well, crap, I made zero progress on my Goals for August 15th and it’s less than a week away now. I gave myself four months and made less than zero progress.

At that time I said I weighed 83 kilos and I could bench­press 55 on a good day. A bet­ter assess­ment would have been 52kg, as I fig­ured out the next day. The goal was to get both num­bers to 70kg.

Last night I went … Read the rest

Paradox

Wan­der­ing through ran­dom peo­ple’s jour­nals this morn­ing I came across some­one’s jour­nal that res­onat­ed with me quite a bit. The more I read, the more intrigued I became. And the more I read, the more I saw ways in which our cir­cum­stances are sim­i­lar, which explained the res­o­nance. And then…

A painful aware­ness hit me. This per­son described how she had stopped pur­su­ing dat­ing and roman­tic rela­tion­ships because she is whole and does not require a part­ner to com­plete her. The … Read the rest

Self-hatred

First, let me say that return-receipt reg­is­tered mail to Iran is real expen­sive. But I’m glad that I can do that at all with a coun­try with whom the US has no diplo­mat­ic rela­tions. Almost all my inter­na­tion­al mail in the last eigh­teen months has just been lost in the void or tak­en upwards of six months to arrive. But as soon as I start­ed using reg­is­tered mail, which is sup­posed to be slow­er, they start­ed show­ing up in 5Read the rest

Cuba

Writ­ing a response to an ear­li­er thread got me think­ing about some things, specif­i­cal­ly about Cuba and women and see­ing Cuba before Cas­tro dies, because things will change quite a bit when he’s gone.

My father went to Cuba a cou­ple years ago. He was a part of a “ful­ly host­ed” yacht race so it was entire­ly legal and every­thing. And he took a lot of pic­tures. One of my favorite ones is this post’s fea­tured image above.

A cou­ple things about … Read the rest